The wait.

Been a while since I wrote something. Time has obviously been moving much more quickly then I ever expected. But now even thou it is very close it has never felt like it has been further away.

And when I say “it”, I’m talking about the big thing. Most likely the event that will change me in a way that I can’t even imagine.
These last 8 months have been the fastest ever, but they haven’t been normal either. I have married, moved to a bigger apartment, worked and had a lot of interesting things going on. But there is still the biggest thing to come.

The coming of … my son.

The first day…

There are things you hear which will make you stop for a second or two almost every day. But it is not everyday you hear things that will make everything stop and make everything go into a blur.

Yesterday I was confronted with something I never expected to experience during my lifetime. At moment I’m not sure how to handle the whole situation at all.

Everything is of course not set in stone, and a lot of things can happen during the coming nine months. But still…all I can do is gasp in a shock…and in joy!

Another week…

Another weekend has passed, and another “normal” workweek begins. On my way to our project for the day which is located about 250 km away from home. My work partner and driver is taking a powernap to gain some strength, obviously getting up at 4am was hard for him. He keeps telling me that He hasnt been sleeping in the weekend, but I have some difficulty beliving that would be the case.

I myself have sleept about 2 hours this night, but i still feel like i had been sleeping the whole weekend. Saturday morning i woke up naked in a cellar with a beatiful woman next to me, and even thou my head was being pounded with a sledgehammer from inside I couldnt have been happier.

Saturday was spent mostly in a undressed state with this godess, and that night i sleept like a baby. It sure is weird how certain individuals can make you relaxed without actually doing anything more then just be themselves.

But the normal week will be long when all you want is…weekend.

Murphy strikes back!

Life, it sure is one of the biggest jokes ever. When you reached a certain point where you have deicided not to have any plans at all. Life decides to make up something for you.

I really thought in my own small mind that i could reach a state of peace by not taking on me any obligations at all. So what happened?

I suddenly have a new job which i enjoy, and ive met someone that seems to be something more than I asked for. Life sure is a joke, all I can do is to sit back and laugh!

The season of joy!

Uhh, it is getting near to that dreadful time of the year again. It was one of the biggest highlights of the year when you were a kid, but nowadays…Well i wouldn’t call it highlight. It is more than a week to go and i am already fed up with the “seasonal” music, the endless decoration that people are putting EVERYWHERE, and last…the phrase:

Merry Christmas!

I think these lyrics should be implemented as a true christmas carol!

Guess i could go on about my love for the season but i think this tune sums everything up pretty good.

I am suppose to write more often…

Feel kind of bad that i haven’t written in a while. It’s weird that every time i am supposed to write down some stuff i seem to think:

- Ill do that first time in the morning.

But when i wake up that seems to have been forgotten. I need to force myself to try and write a bit more often.

Yesterday I went to the big city to try and take some pictures, weather was fine when I came to the city, but of course it had to start to rain after being there for about 20 minutes. Luckily a friend and I decided to visit museums again. The army museum was our choice this Saturday. Have to say that the army museum of Stockholm was quite a disappointment when I compared it to the army museum of Helsinki. The exhibition was dull, and it felt like there was nothing of real interest at all.

We decided to try and meet up next Saturday for some new museum visits which we both hoped should be more interesting than this. We walked about for a few hours, had some lunch and went home after reviewing what was showing at the cinemas. Seems that there are not many movies that are made that really catches my interest.

I was invited to go to Göteborg next weekend aswell, but that city is really horrible as most of the Swedish “bigger” cities, so i will have to try and make up my mind about going or not early this coming week.

Yesterdays long walk in the capital had its price! When i woke up i felt like i was becoming sick, so i had to cancel my dinner with a few friends tonight just so i wont have to spend the whole next week in bed.

Sunlight, Museums, and glorified view’s!

Saturday i woke up by the ray’s of light hitting my face, and imminently jumped into my boots and head into the city to get some variation on landscape while taking a stroll. Cant say i really regret making that choice this day, since the sun was up all day without any clouds at all. I walked all around for the whole day until i got a phone call from an old friend who i decided to have some dinner with.

We met up,had dinner and went to a museum in the city which none of us has visited since we both were in school i guess. It was nice, and i think i need to do a few more visits to museums in the near future. Somehow i have really forgotten about them, even thou they have been right under my nose so to say.

After our dinner and visit to the museum we took a coffee and decided to go to a bar to just have “one beer”, of course it is always just meant to be that one beer…which always seem to develop into more like 10 (guess this has to do with bad character).

We sat and chatted for about 1 hour until we got approached by this guy who started to talk with us. He was a tourist from Brazil and was here to enjoy the heavier kind of music. As so many others outside of Sweden and other Scandinavian countries, he seemed to have this glorified almost mythic view about the north when it comes to music like this.

After we had spoken and told him the hard truth’s about how stuff really are his look about the northern countries had changed quite lot and he told us:

- My friends will NEVER belive me!

So how hard will you have to prove things to people who are truly believing something?
At least it took me a good 4 hours to convince this man about his “vision” of Sweden was nothing more than a polish turd. Luckily there had been people at the hotel that he was staying at, that was from the northern parts of Sweden that had told him same things as i did. So i did only strengthen those points about Sweden and heavier music apparently. But im pretty sure that he will look upon Sweden with a different view then what he had when he came here.

The truth isn’t always what you expect, thou it is the only thing i personally would prefer to hear.

Thing’s that you never heard!

When it comes to music i am pretty much open for all kinds of different styles, even if i started my musical love on the “harder” side. I dont listen to that much metal anymore since it have somehow just lost the soul of itself, with bands trying to sound as the last “successful” band. If i listen to it i always tend to listen to the records that are close to my heart, and more or less have been there since they first time i heard them.

Often see myself as pretty much up-to-date when it comes to the different genres of music which i enjoy. But every now and then you stumble upon something that has been around for quite some time and somehow you still never heard about it. It may have been that I dismissed a band/artist just when you heard/read the name for some weird reason like:

- With a name like that it must be crap! This is a negative thing which i myself possess as do many other people.

Well, with luck you can make up for your mistakes later when you actually sit down and listen to the artist and can say:

-Oh my god, this is really good! And suddenly you have a bunch of records on your hands which you have never heard and can just sit and enjoy some “new” good music.

And today…France seems to have another good band which i will add to my list.

Yyrkoon

This is GOOD Death Metal indeed, which seems to have a Lovecraft theme written all over it. Can’t really give any full review yet, but so far i haven’t heard a bad song from the 2 albums i have heard.
So if you are in any way into Death Metal do check them out.

If not…Well you wouldn’t like it!

 

Sleep

As long as I can remember I never really enjoyed sleeping. Sure it is lovely to do it when you are exceptionally exhausted, but otherwise for me it always felt like a waste of time somehow.

As a kid I was told to go to sleep at some certain hour, but I remember lying in my bed thinking about all different thinks that you could do instead of sleeping. The thought about having to “wait” until tomorrow always seemed way too long.

When I moved away from home I can’t really remember sleeping more than a maximum of 6 hours a night, that have seemed to be more than enough for my body to rest, to be able to function normally without having any “side effects”. It worked so good for me the 4 years that I was working night shifts. I always came home when people got up and started to go to work, and I had every morning in my own quite peace without having to rush to work with a million other people.

A few times I have been testing myself just to see how long I can actually stay awake and function without having any problems. I remember a “test” where I was awake for about 70h or so and when I eventually laid down and just passed out. And it seems around 48h is a maximum I can manage. After that freaky things start to happen. You start to see things in the corner of your eye, hear people saying things even if they never uttered a word, and most of the time you just fall into some kind of coma and just stare at something without being able to look away.

Today this restlessness has a good grip on me again. I feel like I am about the age of 5 when it is time to go to sleep. My body just don’t want to lie down and go to sleep. I am not thinking about anything special, I don’t have something that really is a burden, and I don’t feel any stress. Some people say that I should see a doctor about it, and it isn’t healthy at all. But the doctor will most likely just prescribe me some pills, which I wouldn’t take anyway…

Why is it that so many people think this is such a huge problem? I have learned to function with it, the only really negative side with being awake during night is that you can get quite lonely. It’s not like you can call your close friends or actually go outside and do things (well you can, but people would look upon you as a total freak I suppose). Internet is a saviour of sorts, where you actually can communicate with ease with people who are awake because it is not their time to sleep yet.

It seems to be that time again, when I must force myself to sleep…

Fair, Fighting and Framed!

There it was, another weekend has come to an end.

Friday I was with my father, while he was conducting some marketing research, and meeting up with new potential business partners. I would sum the Friday up into 3 different highlights:

-Old men without clues
-Stepping into dog poo
-Setting of alarms in stores

Luckily I was only an observer in all these 3 things, but I can say every one of them was priceless in their own way.

Saturday I spent from 9 am to around 4 pm at the Stockholm Photo Fair. It was a nice experience until at some point the place gets too crowded of course. The lovely “geek’s” were the first ones to enter the fair which opened at 10 am. I came 1 hour earlier to just check the photo exhibition and enjoy a cup of coffee while watching the arriving crowds. There were some nice speakers from around the world present which were nice to listen too. At one of the major print companies i managed to get a photo printed on thick cardboard in A3 format with incredible quality, for free of course. The picture was colour from start but i thought that it would look good in black and white so luckily i was able to convert it.

After the fair me and a good friend met up to have some lunch, which turned into late night conversation with some old school fighting game action on his newly received Playstation 2.

Sunday was the traditional “HelpOutAFriendOnARainyDayAtIkea” day, which for once went pretty smooth.

Bought a frame for the photo which I got printed on Saturday at the fair, and for once even the IKEA frame fitted perfectly. They usually have to be adjusted in some way because the sizes are…well they are like all IKEA’s stuff…

Nice weekend, hopefully the whole week will go as smoothly!